yes, i know, we are supposed to progress step-by-step, over the course of many lives, to slowly reach nirvana.
maybe there really is no point.
all i can do really, is calm myself down, and upon realizing that it really doesn't matter, move forward and do some routine things that will hopefully make me feel a tad better.
no, the hard things that take immense mental energy aren't going to go away. but unless i truly calm myself down, those things will take ten times that mental energy.
so calm down. or do something that calms me down.
