it sometimes even gets to a point that it no longer matters if i'm actually right or wrong. i just need to feel that i am right, my entire life and sanity depends on it and it becomes my singular focus.
the only way out of this mess is to remember there is no true i. the larger the i, the deeper hole i dig myself into, regardless of the outcome. the smaller the i, the less important the rightness or wrongness of the whole matter is.
