give up on this blog.
give up on all these people who annoy me.
give up on difficult relationships.
give up on whatever aim i set out to achieve.
give up all these things that are troubling me and forget that there is any chance i might make the tiniest difference.
just step away from it all, to do what? i don't know, just to get away from it all. just anything to get away from the feeling of a thousand shit-made needles pricking me. yes, i know, i'm very fortunate and blessed and all that kind of stuff, but actually sometimes there simply seems to be no room for that kind of appreciation in my brain. i understand it logically, but i can't feel it.
of course, giving up only brings a whole new set of problems, possibly better, but probably worse. just the nature of how life tends to work.
which means, i may need to give up the idea of giving up.
