because if this truth and understanding existed (one that did not change according to my life experiences and worldview), once i had figured it out, i could simply live my life according to it and not be in a perpetual state of "what am i doing this for"?
because existential crises bother me, and would want to know once and for all, why i exist and for what purpose? (a definitive answer even such as "for no purpose whatsoever" might suit me too, but i'd like to know for sure)
because constant contentment sounds rather nice, seems much preferable to the mood swings due to the big and small disappointments in life (or due to things like general human nature)?
because if there really is a afterlife/nirvana/something good after death, i want to understand which exactly is the right thing to do and which "god" or "way" to follow? (even in the absence of such, being confident of the right way to follow during my earthly existence might be helpful)
because the promise of non-suffering sounds like a pretty good deal? (is that equivalent to the overall maximization of pleasure in fact?)
