Thursday, August 12, 2010

seriously? believing in myself?

one thing that is not lacking in the world is information, and with that conflicting opinions and data. even if we can agree on the end goal, getting there faces the same myriad of choices. go hard, go soft, stand firm on principles, be flexible when the situation calls for it.

advice is always nice, and people who care about me will be offering lots (just like i love offering mine). there is no easy conclusion and all the options sound equally bad (or good). if there was an easy conclusion i wouldn't need advice in the first place. in these instances, well, not doing anything sounds like a fine idea.

sometimes, to remain sane... there's no choice. i simply have to believe in myself.

yes, it's the standard line proclaimed from every self-help book and i don't believe in believing in myself. but at times, it's the only way to stay sane. this is not even about achieving some impossible goal, not even about going against any odds, but just to function somewhat normally, without going in the death spiral of paralyzing self-doubt.

seriously? what if my actions run the risk of hurting someone, knowingly or unknowingly? well, yes, still. because i will never know if i'm avoiding hurting them in the short term and harming them long term. or hurting them in the short term and helping them in the long term.