even if, even if, i could do anything i could, there is still the constraint of my time here (and with that the usual uncertainty of its length).
so, at the risk of stating the very obvious and sounding silly and greedy, i can't have everything. there's still a matter of where the time goes, as even in the unrealistic hypothetical situation, there is still the limitation of time.
if i devote more time and energy to something, something else is going to get less attention. over the course of five, ten years, the difference is going to be tremendous. the question is, how much will that difference matter to me?
