- life seems more colorful, more vivid.
- bad emotions seem to go away a lot quicker than before.
- fear is becoming a rare emotion.
- i don't know if i'm happier, but that doesn't bother me much anymore.
- a little less affected by things i can't control.
- a little better at being grateful for the things i appear to control.
one of the harder things to do now is continuing to believe in my own willpower. which i know is extremely useful, yet, getting chipped away by all this realization. fortunately, it can be nicely replaced by fearlessness. of course, i still have to be careful, and i need to somehow trick myself about somethings to fear and somethings not to fear.
