why do i do these things to myself?

sometimes, decisions made under clear, rational thought do not seem so apparently clear and rational right after they're put in action. in fact, they seem masochistic, insane, and reckless.

running a marathon usually seems to be a fine idea. in the middle of a marathon, it seems to be a absolutely horrible idea. towards the end of a marathon, it becomes a better idea again. after finishing a marathon, it's definitely a great idea.

of course, crashing out of a marathon kind of sucks. that's when the letting go of expectations really comes in handy.

hindsight is the clearest, foresight is occasionally clear, the duringsight is the blurriest.